14th February 2007,
5.15pn Wednesday, yeah, Valentine's Day and I'm still in the office. Has not been blogging, so thought of blogged before shut down. Today is a busy day, not because high patient load or problems arising, but busy because occupied with other matters. Was cleaning up my fish tank, spring cleaning the "Fish Home" before New Year. Bought a new filter for my fish, hopefully that will require less frequent cleaning. I've lost 2 sucker fishes. Some said they died coz I change water too frequently and they don't have fungus to eat, so "mati kebuluran". Other said because I put too much of green medicine inside, so they can't take it, and died. I can't bear with death anymore. I really don't want to see my other fishes weaken. God, pls protect them, and prolong their life.
Today is Valentine's Day, and 3 of my staff received gift from their loved one: 2 flowers, and one teddy bear with LOVE. Each year Valentine, I'll usually be on-leave. No important reason to be on-leave, but just to be away and home with family, enjoying the love at home. Today is different, because I have Management Meeting to attend, so have to work.
To my very surprise, this year is the ever 1st time I receive flower for Valentines. It's dark red roses, symbolise sincerity and courtship, and 12 stalk, means completeness. It's delivered to my room, but I wasn't around to collect it. I was away... somewhere in the hospital for meeting, then suddenly, when I open my door, there lies the sweet roses.
If you asked me what is my feeling, I would say, of course la..yeah..I am happy, pampered with sweet roses. Yet, I was also worried at the same time, when I look at the card. I don't really expect 'my friend' to send my flower. And to my surprise, the night after that he actually confess to me that he likes me. I was speechless, don't know how to answer him. To one, it's a nice feeling, an experience of being woed and chase after... as if I'm so special diamond. Duhhh......yeah, it's nice feeling, but it will be nicer if you able to reciprocate the feeling. But if you don't, then that's another story. My staff saw the flowers and teasing me, trying to dig who is the person. I was just quiet, not able to reciprocate the feeling - definitely not him. So, are we gonna remain as friends after all that happened? I dunno, depends how he take it.
